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2/21/2009

2月21日 pm7:59 那一瞥残阳下羞涩的黄昏

       从小语文就学的不好,都是因为脑袋差,高考语文不及格,没办法,就喜欢写下三滥的文章,这不,明白事理的人都大叫着抓流氓呢。

         是奔跑还是闲逛,人类的脑细胞往往不参与确切问题的思考,行为更像残缺的影射,对于内容,交互往往显得过于强悍,而背景却是单一的线状意识,
       是时间切割了记忆,碎片和爆裂的血管,游离中零星的好像父体的排出物,寻找着不存在的Matrix,这就叫subconscious,空洞吞噬着没有根基的游离体,所以说行为的残缺性在于意识的空乏,或者理解成对现实的回避,好像龟头一样避免干涩的摩擦,于是,她们缺少了现实的核查,她们信任下意识,而流淌的往往是敦促流程合理化的feeling,于是有了思考,这是判断的逆向路径和所有un-,dis-,a/ab-,sub-的prefix一样,这种行为我们称之为伟大的impotence,
        而理论往往显得越发可耻,她们是勃起的penises,生硬的塞进了vigins尚未开化的小嘴,因为她们的错误束缚了人类的最高行为,Sigmund Freud错误的终结了生命史上最伟大的集群的明天,AI,digital tech & biotechnology的明天里根本没有人类,或者说Darwin又要苏醒了,以完善它封尘多年的evolutionism,所以有人大喊着哈利路亚冲向疯人病院,留下耶路撒冷火热的希望。
       一般来说,本文结尾处我会说:哦,不用怕,孩子们,我们有一半人都举着小手枪呢,

       但今天,我要告别流氓的身份告诉你们:对不起我是警察。

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2/10/2009

CCTV大火大火。。库哈斯的鞋子烧了。。

大火。。。。烧到今天两点钟火才扑灭,结构还没有坏,还没有人伤亡。奇迹! 
 
PP 来自潘石屹的BLOG,给个他的链接。炒作也好,看热闹也好,这么一场大的事故,烧得是纳税人的钱。
还有一点很奇怪,全世界的媒体都第一时间报道了,并且还是现场报道,自家着火的央视一直挨凌晨才上口头新闻。
河蟹啊河蟹。惊了!
 
 
 
 
 

 上报道:
 
2月10日 

         1:07爆料网友已经打上车,正安全回家,感谢大家的关注,感谢各位对本次报道的支持!希望所有在火场的人们平安回家!祝愿伤者能早日康复!向英勇的消防战士致敬!!! 

  1:07路上还有几辆出租车黑车比较多 

  1:05还有消防车和工程车在向火场方向驶去。 

  1:03只有沿着东西方向的公交车在走,警戒线外还是有很多群众,远望浓烟中的大楼。 

  1:02目前三环主路辅路还在封闭,没有看到车,有武警战士进出朝阳剧院 

  0:59爆料网友撤离路上,路过呼家楼派出所,里面灯火通明,还有7、8个警察在大厅里待命。小区里看不到行人了,约有20-30%的住家还亮着灯。 

  0:56封锁线拉的很长,爆料网友撤离的路上,只好在楼群里穿来穿去。 

  0:53从远处看,仍有明火,大楼笼罩在淡淡的烟雾中。 

  0:52前方爆料网友正在从核心区撤离,沿途警方警戒严密。 

  0:46现场网友称大的明火已经熄灭,还有几处小的明火,应该慢慢熄灭,现场群众逐渐往回走。本次报道严重感谢各位网友,特别是现场网友对本次报道支持。

  0:29大楼西侧8-9层发现一处较大明火。 

  0:28从远处看,大楼顶部大概5-6层损毁比较严重 

  0:27仍有上百群众围观 

  0:27又来了一辆中巴车,有警车开路 

  0:25从火场里一辆999救护车呼啸驶出。 

  0:22目前大楼底部明火已经被扑灭,顶部的火焰已经非常微弱了。 

  0:15目前已经过了燃放期,里着火大楼500米的地方又有烟花声。 

  0:14现场驶来一辆燃气工程车,估计是检查天然气管线的。 

  0:10现在已经过了午夜12点,燃放爆竹期结束,外面的烟花爆竹声终于停息下来。 

  0:06楼顶明火又继续燃烧,火焰往外窜连成一片 

  0:05大楼外墙的玻璃基本保存完好。 

  0:04大楼上部的燃火点已经熄灭,大约从顶部往下数10层左右又有一处新着起来的着火点。 

  0:01爆料网友所处的工地是首创的工地 

  2月9日 

  23:57主体建筑还是比较结实的,没有倒塌迹象。 

  23:56能够看到大楼外侧装饰线条的钢骨架有些弯曲变形,但是整体比较稳定 

  23:51警方又开始新一轮清场。 

  23:35空气中有类似烧头发的焦糊味道 

  23:34网友所处的工地里,有工地的帐篷被点燃,所幸被及时扑灭 

  23:33火场附近的地面上布满银白色薄膜状物质,现场围观群众里面有搞建筑的人讲,外墙铝扣板,是大厦外墙装修使用的,这种材料高温燃烧后会融化,形成球状物,能随风飘落,落地后形成银箔状的物质 

  23:19大楼顶部,中部还有明火 

  23:17现场消防车警车救护车练成一片 

  23:16现场有强烈刺鼻的浓烟味道 

  23:15爆料网友所处的工地的围墙成了一个临时封锁线,警方不干涉网友在工地内观察火情 

  23:14朝阳路有武警战士赶过来,穿着军装的摄影师也干活来 

  23:11又有4-5辆救护车开进火场,医护人员进入现场,N辆写有“朝阳环卫”的洒水车在现场 

  23:11浓烟中大楼主体结构清晰可见 

  23:06大楼顶部继续冒出滚滚浓烟 

  23:04现场地面有大楼燃烧后落下残余物,灰尘等 

  23:03黑色白色两辆轿车在警方引导下,进入火车,可能是领导过来现场指挥 

  23:02现场工人称,大楼大火是从西侧开始燃烧,蔓延到东侧 

  22:59燃烧大楼北侧,有一幢15层的居民楼,据火场约150米 

  22:59令人遗憾的是,在距离大楼300米的地方,仍有群众在燃放烟花 

  22:57据附近工地工人称,大火是有燃放烟花爆竹引起,大火首先从大楼上部先开始;从大楼上部燃烧开始,到引发大火,中间大约有半个小时时间。 

  22:56现场一英国人用数码相机拍摄,看他拍的照片,是把镜头推到上去的火焰 

  22:52该网友表示,应该10点或者更早点地铁就开始广播了说让在国贸全部下车 

  22:50来自地铁的网友称,十号线国贸站封闭,乘客被撤离 

  22:48工程车提供高架 

  22:47霄云路南侧大概200米范围内,一篇警灯闪烁。 

  22:43待命的消防员登上消防车,似乎在轮换 

  22:43明火就剩1、2处了 

  22:41火场北侧,200米左右的工地还在正常施工 

  22:36一位消防员可能因为救火受伤,被救护车带离现场 

  22:32据附近群众称,火灾是有人燃放礼花引起的,着火大楼上的人员已经转移。 

  22:31网友正在离火场不远处的工地处 

  22:30现场风不算太大,浓烟正在消散 

  22:30现场还能听到鞭炮声 

  22:29数道白色的探照灯,打在大楼上 

  22:28警方还在扩大警戒线,火势继续 

  22:25大楼的配楼还在猛烈燃烧,大约在3-4层 

  22:23大楼被一片浓烟掩盖 

  22:22网友换了个地点,发现大楼中上部还有两个着火点,感觉火势已被控制,没有刚才那么凶猛 

  22:16爆料网友在警方要求下退后50米,感觉警方防止大楼倒台殃及围观群众 

  22:15大楼边上6层高的配楼其4-5层继续燃烧 

  22:13大概有一个排的武警在场拉起警戒线 

  22:12火势已经控制了 

  22:11大楼内让在燃烧 

  22:10京广桥下成了警车临时停车场,快速公交呼家楼东站,十余辆消防车一字排开待命 

  22:07网友:十五的月亮在浓烟中时隐时现 

  [前请摘要]2月9日晚九时左右,央视副楼着火,火势从西侧升起,随着火势不断蔓,西侧几乎毁于一旦。接着,受风势影响,大伙蔓延至东侧,并且范围一再扩大,而后不少消防车赶到,却没能马上控制火势,浓烟不断加剧。 

  22:06爆料网友距离火场目测约300米 

  22:05很多群众手持相机摄像机在拍摄 

  22:04现场有救护车,伤亡情况不详 

  22:04大楼火光冲天、浓烟滚滚,从很远距离都可清楚看见,附近交通已被封锁,手机信号紊乱。 

  22:04大楼内部有亮光闪动,疑是工作人员正在呼救。约夜晚九时半,内部闪光消失,估计人员已基本撤离。此刻,从大楼上面引发的火势已经烧到下部。 

  综述央视副楼着火,火势从西侧升起,随着火势不断蔓,东侧几乎毁于一旦。接着,受风势影响,大伙蔓延至东侧,并且范围一再扩大! 

  21:59央视大楼已经被浓烟遮住。 

  21:58现场爆料网友正在靠近火场 

  21:56警方已经封锁该区域 

  21:51感觉大楼东侧已经燃烧的差不多了 

  21:50发生一两次猛烈的爆炸 

  21:49刚听到一声巨响,感觉楼有些倾斜 

  21:48现场有数十辆消防车 

  21:47楼顶剧烈燃烧,黑色浓烟中有金黄色的颗粒 

  21:46据现场围观群众讲,火从8点半开始着的。 

  21:40截至目前,火势还在熊熊燃烧中,扬起滚滚浓烟,附近的小区居民已经感到很呛。 

  21:30在三环主路附近,有上千名群众围观。 

  21:10附近的手机信号都没了,该区域已经限制交通,附近有很多群众围观,电视台记者在拍摄。着火的楼不是央视的主楼(大裤衩),是边上的央视副楼。 

  据说是在院子里放烟花点燃,火从三楼开始然后,一直往上。 

  今天是元宵节,北京烟花燃放的非常热烈。
 
   
 
 
  
1/27/2009

纵贯线 出发!

 

4个男人3个半单身,我看好这个组合哦!

男人只有在慌迷中才能爆发潜在的魄力。

瞧,这歌的词写得多好!!!

这不比当今华语乐坛那些脑残和小白脸强多了???!!!

我强烈看好这组合!

 

      

张震岳:(游走在青春与沧桑之间的浪子,新一代的华语情歌天王,一些些稚嫩,一些些孤寂,一些些成熟)

       听我说 我原来有个梦 跟你高飞远走 跟你一起走到白头
  但是我 拥有化为乌有 忘记我们承诺 忘记曾经爱你爱的那么浓
  我不能带你走 我犯了大错 必须一个人走 必须扛下所有罪过
  必须离开熟悉的街口 请你不要忘记我 这夜里有小雨飘在空中
  当我扣板机的瞬间灵魂早已卖给魔鬼
  可笑的是 我好想求主帮我赎回 赎回我那一丁点的尊严
  想起妈妈的脸 对不起这几年 是否有机会再见你一面
  妈妈我犯了错 你会原谅我吗? 我已经踏上了末路
  别人眼中的亡命之徒 哪里还有我的藏身处?
  我的兄弟 离我远去我还傻呼呼的相信道义
  所谓的人性莫非要用血和泪来换取教训 不想再混下去
  想说干完这一票就不再撩下去 想着想着我的眼泪就流不停

  出发啦 不要问那路在哪? 迎风向前 是唯一的方法
  出发啦 不想问那路在哪? 运命哎呀 什么关卡?
  当车声隆隆 梦开始阵痛 它卷起了风 重新雕塑每个面孔
  夜雾那么浓 开阔也汹涌 有一种预感 路的终点是迷宫

李宗盛:(华语乐坛的教父之一,失败的婚姻,成功地事业。什么叫实力派熟男,这就是标准的中年熟男)

  喂 小子 我想我大概明白你的意思 那些发生在你身上的
  曾经以不同的面貌 也在我生命里出现过好几次
  对此 我并无更高明的解释 只是觉得今天说不定是个合适的日子
  我们就各自用舒服的姿势 用擅长的方式 给人生我们的
  不管是一种告解还是一份答辩词 人再有本事也难抵抗命运的不仁慈
  这道理再简单不过 接不接受是另外一回事 真爱并非不来
  它只是被无预警的恶意的延迟
  不要让某个女人做的蠢事变成你自己与自己的争执。(这一句,是写给某个人的么?这一段写得多平易近人!)
 
周华健:(过气的小白脸,空有一身情才,混沌在生存的幸福与庸碌之间的老男人。)
  为什么 该有的都有还是觉得不够 天呀 该不会是贪心的念头
  为什么 拼了命地工作 拼了命地追梦 到头来原地没有动过
  为什么 万里晴空下的面孔 庸庸碌碌不开心地锁着眉头 要向谁哭诉
  为什么 想去看场电影 该死的台风偏偏选在每一个的周末
  为什么 这个世界上 就是有人穷得发疯 有人富有 把钞票当作了枕头
  为什么 新闻里鼻酸故事 只为了偷面包给妈妈 充饥的小偷
  为什么 一百个为什么 变成一千个 一万个 十万个 为什么
  为什么 我想破头写不出个鸟 念念念 我为了什么
 
罗大佑:(这个总结写得多好,瞧这第一句!失败的男人?成功地男人?有什么统统拿出来!!)
       我们都不必在意未来的样子
  像是精神病患写的诗? 或是烟花绽放的节日?
  随它去吧 我们都只活一次 呼吸呼吸呼吸 呼 一切曳然而止
  真理在荒谬被证实以前 都只是暗室里的装饰
  只有当眼前亮起来了以后 才有机会彰显它的价值 不是谁能决定的
  该漫游还是冲刺 我们都在海里 我觉得我们像沙子
  你说的亡命之徒 是不是大概就是这个意思?

合    出发啦 不要问那路在哪? 迎风向前 是唯一的方法
  (亡命之徒 可会全力以赴 是不是穷途末路 有没有藏身之处)
  出发啦 不想问那路在哪? 运命哎啊 什么关卡?
  (亡命之徒 逃亡要全力以赴 喘息在穷途末路 给我个藏身之处)
  当车声隆隆 梦开始阵痛 它卷起了风 重新雕塑每个面孔
  (亡命之徒 可会全力以赴 是不是穷途末路 有没有藏身之处)
  夜雾那么浓 开阔也汹涌 有一种预感 路的终点是迷宫
  (亡命之徒 逃亡要全力以赴 喘息在穷途末路 给我个藏身之处)
 
当男人们被命运折磨得时候就是他们发“甩”的时候, 4个男人3个半单身,带给我们的是真的好音乐。
这个组合真的很有创意,希望多创作些新歌!而不是空空的噱头。

 

1/10/2009

1月10日 pm8:21 成功男人和准男人的对话

道理我都明白了,有些错一辈子只能犯一次。
我错了,挽回,不遗余力。
11/29/2008

这篇文章激动到不得不转

作阅读做到,感触太大了:
 assholes
 
 Every cell in your body is changed over a seven-year period.
Does your personality change, too? 
 
ARE you the same person now that you were fifteen years ago? In fact, are you the same person you were just seven years ago? Most of us have heard the old saying that every cell in the body is changed over a period of seven years; but recent investigation has uncovered facts of far more significance to us as human beings. This concerns the emotional, physical and mental changes that seem to occur in approximate seven-year intervals.
Rudolph Steiner, the great teacher of Anthroposophy said that the seven-year cycles continue throughout life, and are of the utmost importance to doctors, teachers, psychiatrists and the social sciences. Without some smattering of these changes it is difficult for anyone to understand the relationship of any given individual with his or her environment. So I have tried to summarise what Steiner and others have said about the cycles.
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One of the most important of these cycles is the first, from birth to seven years of age. Its importance lies in the fact that it is the beginning of everything, the foundation upon which the later structure will be built. Birth gives individual life to an infant body. Even at birth, this small being already has its given potential of intelligence, creativity and personality. But this potential has to come to terms with its environment, which includes its own body. In a human being we cannot have awareness without consciousness; we cannot have thinking without the tools of thought such as language, concepts or ideas. So during our early years we are largely moved by the instincts of hunger, need for love, protection and support, along with pain and the impact of our environment. All this while we build up the inner, mental structures that in later years will allow us to think, to feel, and to be aware of ourselves as an individual.
At birth there is a very different physical and glandular system than in later years. For a start the sexual organs have not developed, meaning responses to sex and sesation are very global. Also the thymus is very large and in later years becomes smaller. It has been said this, in thes early years, gives the child a very primitive response to truth, right and wrong, and what later become moral codes. So the child only slowly develops any real sense of social morality.
But something so mysterious happens to us during this first seven years that once done it can never be undone. The Roman Catholic Church recognises this by saying that if they can have the first seven years of a child's life, that is all they need to insure a lifelong influence. Napoleon also observed that as the twig is bent, so the tree will grow. This is borne out by seeing the cases of children who have been lost and brought up by animals during these formative years. Even with the best tuition they never learn to become a self aware personality as we know it. Time is a mystery to them, and even though their brain size and function is normal, they never approach the usual capabilities that education gives to modern women and men. So, in the first cycle we pass through an incredible process of learning. This includes motor movements, speech, relationship to ourselves and to our environment. And that means learning a vast amount about what is useful, entertaining or harmful; about what responses we get from others, and developing habits of response that may be difficult to change in later years. We learn a sense of personal awareness and move toward becoming an individual. In other words, we learn to say "I" and know what we mean.
Steiner also says that during this first stage of development the developing inner forces are working to transform the body of the child from one that was inherited from the parents, to one that represents the full personality of the child.
Something often overlooked about the stages of growth are ones emotional age.
From age zero we are completely dependent upon the loved person for our needs, physical, emotional and social. Great anger, jealousy or pain are felt if the loved one relates to anyone else, is lost, or threatens to leave. If we do not mature beyond this emotional age, in adulthood this enormous feeling reaction may also be felt at a time of emotional withdrawal of the partner, even if there is no sign of them withdrawing physically. In the infant and toddler there is a desire for unconditional love and a need to be always with the loved one. In an adult with this level of love, sex may be a part of the relationship, but the main need is a bonded connection. This is sometimes felt as a need to have the loved person want you as much, or as desperately, as you want/need them. Possibly the greatest fear, one that can trigger great anger or an enormous desire to placate or earn love, is the threat or fear of being abandoned. See: Ages of Love; Lifeline of Love; Animal Children.
7-14
The second cycle, from seven to fourteen, continues this growth. The concepts and association of ideas and emotions that began in the first cycle begin to be discovered by the child. The physical changes also prepare the growing personality for the next stage. The thymus gland decreases rapidly in size, allowing the development of a sense of right and wrong, and social responsibility.
The child has learned, with the advent of its concepts and developing emotions, to create an inner world of its own. It is a world of heroes, danger and vivid imagination. As the thymus fades, and the sexual organs develop, the personality glides into the turbulent world of puberty and adolescence.
Sometimes it is already evident, even from the preceding cycle, the direction of interest and activity the child will take in maturity. Although for the very observant this might be seen in very early years, it becomes more evident as one approaches puberty.
In all a time of inner expansion. You begin to experience and test abilities in the broader sense of the outside world. You may learn to share and interact, controlling earlier instincts in favour of group dynamics.
14-21
This is the third cycle, from fourteen to twenty-one. During it we become conscious of ourselves in a new way, and with a different relationship to life. One might say we become "self conscious." The emotional range expands in all directions, and with this a new appreciation of music, art, literature and people begins. It is found for instance that at puberty the ability to distinguish subtler tones of colour and sound develops. Besides this the person might go through the difficult struggle of breaking away from home life and/or parental influence. It naturally produces conflict as the person learns some degree of independence. Also, the opposite sex, or sex as a urgent impulse, usually becomes all important as the new emotions pour in upon our personality.
Because of the new range of feelings, many youths experience a different relationship to religion and life's mysteries. All this, as one approaches twenty-one, produces an individual with some sense of social and individual responsibility, or if not that the beginning or a sense of a direction or life purpose. This might not be recognised as such at the time. But it is a time of searching for life purpose, independence, a realization of choices plus a testing of social and personal limitations as well as an awareness of a burgeoning sexuality. As this is a traumatic period of life for most of us, it is also likely to be a time of many unforgettable dreams.
The period is a time of adding maturity, dignity and poise to the person. If these changes have not occurred by twenty-one, then the person has in some way not covered necessary aspects of development, and both psychology and the law recognises that they are lacking maturity.
This period is one of great and sweeping changes, physically, emotionally, morally and mentally. Such enormous changes often do not occur without an experience of loss. In this case the world of childhood is fading, or it might even be torn away, leaving scars.
It is also a time when many new features of the personality have their beginning, i.e. the religious sense, appreciation of the beautiful, etc. Although such things have their beginnings here, they sometimes remain undeveloped until later years. Because of these changes, and because such a lot is being revealed in these years, it is obvious why so much thought should be given to early marriage. Because of one's changing viewpoint, the particular partner one would choose at seventeen or eighteen, is likely to be different to the partner chosen at twenty-one and beyond.
The emotional development at this age is possibly seen as initial uncertainty or clumsiness concerning emotional and sexual contact. It often involves desire to explore many relationships, unless there are forces of introversion or personal and social uncertainty at work. We are still finding out what our boundaries and needs are, and the sexual drive as at full flood.. Any partner we have at this time may be loved for ones own needs - rather than out of recognition of who the other person is. Great romantic feelings and spontaneous love which are often difficult to maintain in face of difficulties. 
 21-28
The cycle that follows from twenty-one to twenty-eight, can more or less be called a process of enlargement and refinement. It is the period that we mentally and emotionally enter into adulthood. We start to build the foundations of our careers and intimate relationships with a driving energy that we hope will gain us entry and respect in the larger world.
One of the most marked features is the developing sense of discrimination. The faculties of insight, intuition, judgement and understanding begin to come to the fore. The personality softens and begins to mellow. The sparks of interest that were awakened in the previous cycles begin to be developed along more definite lines. The abilities of the last cycle also flourish. The adult emotional age may begin to emerges if one has successfully grown through the previous levels. This shows as a growing sense of recognising needs of ones partner yet not denying ones own. It is followed by an ability to be something for the partners sake without losing ones own independence or will. One becomes more aware of the issues that colour or influence relationship, and meeting them in cooperation with others. Independence and connection can appear together instead of opposite ends of a spectrum. You move toward becoming caring sexual partners through discovering each others needs and vulnerability.
In this period you will begin to confront the issue that you were either born with, or arose through the challenges and pains of your infancy and childhood. These usually show as the way you handle intimate relationships, whether you can really meet in partnership with the opposite sex, and how you respond to the external world, its challenges and opportunities.
At this time what is revealed may not be addressed as a personal problem or issues to be healed or re-evaluated. They will be faced more directly later if they are not dealt with now.
28-35
The changes become more subtle as the years pass. The next cycle from twenty eight to thirty-five, for instance, is one where the creative process of mind becomes most active. Researchers and inventors seem to make their greatest advances during these years. It is interesting to note that physical science finds evidence of the reason for this in the fact that the association centres of the brain come to their peak efficiency at about thirty-five years of age.
This is even more interesting when we see that most of the great religious teachers and philosophers came to some vital experience at thirty-five. Jesus, Buddha, Paul, Dante and Jacob Behmen were all in the region of thirty-five at the point of their greatest insights. It would seem then, that if there is an inspirational influence at work in the life, it would possibly reach its peak during these years in and around thirty-five.
Here we take stock of ourselves and the emotional influences that have shaped our personality. We begin to determine what is us and what traits we have been pressured by family, peers or society to adopt.
35-42
From the thirty-fifth to the forty-second year, depending upon one's personality and what one's circumstances allow, one begins to feel a new restlessness. In some degree a desire to share whatever one has gained through life with others comes to the surface. Thus we find many successful business men building libraries, or aiding colleges and the arts at this period in their life. What has been developed or realised can be taken to greater subtlety during this period. This is almost like unfolding something, perhaps similar to the way a flower unfolds a bud that has been developing in earlier phases of its growth.
This is when we reassess the results of what we are doing externally in our life. Our relationships, careers, habits and the ways we interact are all put under scrutiny and modified or changed. It’s a time of facing up to what does and what doesn’t satisfy us.
You may reach heights or realisation and creativity not touched previously. The profound breakthrough of ones innate genius that emerges around this time will no doubt be expressed in some degree. However, whatever is attained or realised will be enlarged and synthesised in later periods.
42-49
In the next cycle from forty-two until forty-nine a major change usually takes place. It is as if one takes all of one's life experience up till this age and begins to digest it, and extract from it new ideals and a new direction in life. There is often tremendous unrest in this period and that following it. The unlived aspects of life cry out to be recognised and allowed. The desire to make a mark in life if it has not already been achieved presses for action here.
At this point it appears to many of us that we have reached the mid point of our life and from here on there will be a decline. Even if this is not so it is often felt very strongly and acted upon in one way of another. People change partners, life directions, and even attempt major personal changes, although these latter may have begun in the last cycle.
Also, the emotional age and the maturing of love may at last show signs of an unconditional love. If this is not appearing in small degree, it might be one is still locked in earlier ages. Strangely, many of us maintain the emotional age of a child right into mature years, feeling all the fear of abandonment, jealousy and possessiveness of our childhood. Many divorces and new directions appear around this period.
In these years we move from old stereotypical roles with a new found confidence in our individuality. We are prepared to please our self, rather than society and gain a real understanding of our uniqueness, accompanied by a sense of urgency to express our true self before it gets too late.
49-56
In this, and the next cycle from forty-nine to fifty-six, and the periods that follow, the physical changes bring about a mental or spiritual climax. The decline of physical prowess and vitality, forces the person to direct their attention inwards more frequently. Any problems of our personality, such as maladjustment and our repressions, will undoubtedly become more urgent in these years. This reacts upon one's marriage and professional life alike. The problem is that we have to learn to live with ourselves in a new way. We slowly have to adapt to our new-old body, and habits of long-standing do not die easily.
This is when we take an inventory of our life. It's a time of spiritual questioning and review of our life purpose. If we haven't successfully understood who we are by this stage and achieved our goals, then depression, moodiness and turmoil will plague both our waking life and our dreams.
56-63
This period is often a time of inner tranquility and acceptance. At peace with oneself and more accepting of where we are and what we have achieved marks this period. But many things that were lying unlived within you might arise at this time, either as a form of unrest, or as directly living out those things that duty or work - or even self restraints - kept you from doing or being.
Usually your life situation begins to change in this stage. There is the start of a great shift and adjustment, both in terms of external activities, but also in how you deal with and feel about relationships. Part of the difficulty is that you have lived a long life as a younger person, and the old ways of dealing with things is often difficult to let go of as things change. The opportunity to experiment more fully in life helps you to reassess yourself and what new way of relating and being suits you or is satisfying.
The psychiatrist Carl Jung and others such as Nietzsche developed a whole theory about this period of life that he called Individuation. Perhpas the influence of this began in the last periods during the forties, but becomes more marked now. As an individual we may come to recognise that our make-up is formed out of the collective experience of our family and the culture we have been exposed to. Th question, "Who am I," leads us to look more fully into what makes us who we are. This awarness and the insight gained from it transforms us. The change is that of becoming more fully independent of the forces that formed us. This means we create something new of who we are, and perhaps leave something of this new self in the world by what we do, create or live. Not every one undertakes this diving into the depths of self to discover ones core being.
To quote from the website Soul-Guidance, "Individuation means that one becomes a person, an individual, a totally integrated personality. It is a process of self realization during which one integrates those contents of the psyche that have the ability to become conscious. It is a search for totality. It is an experience that could be formulated as the discovery of the divine in yourself, or the discovery of the totality of your Self. This does not always happen without pain, but it is necessary to accept many things that normally we would shy away from. Once a person has accepted the contents of his unconsciousness and has reached the goal of the individuation process, he is conscious of his relationships with everything that lives, with the entire cosmos."
63-70
Now we have deeper acceptance and understanding of the people in our life. We appreciate the differences between us and our friends and look to the good rather than the bad in people. This is a period where our accumulated experience seeks new creative outlets.
A particularly noticeable process that occurs here is a conscious or unconscious sifting of life experience and moving toward what is the essence and best of what one has been learned from the years and experiences. Sometimes, if you can actually be aware of and work with this process, it leads to a sense of being lost or uncertain. By this is meant that for most of us external needs have dictated the direction of much that we have done or was needed of us. Now a great deal of this external pressure is removed. With its loss you realise that a great many choices or directions are open to you. It is like standing at cross roads with many directions. Which one do you want to take? Often it needs you to stand and observe before any direction from your own core wishes emerges. If during your life you have never worked at dealing with the difficulties and weaknesses or pains innate in you, then this period can lead to great confusion and the meeting of many shadows that you may not yet have developed the skills to deal with previously.
This is also a time in life when natural inner processes can lead you to a greater awareness of what lies beyond death. Things fall away naturally if you let them. A greater detachment from things of the world arises and this in itself is a foretaste of death in which you can let go of all that you have held on to.
70-77
If the issues met in the previous cycle have been dealt with, then there is a new awareness of the subtle sides of life, and a changed relationship with those you love or come in contact with. There is a greater unconditional love and acceptance. By this is meant that awareness of the depths and subtleties of ones own self are known more fully. If you are a person who has an active inner life, it can happen that the huge harvest of gathered life experience that was sifted and synthesised into clearer and more streamlined, or simpler concepts and meanings, is now expressed in your life and dealings with others. You may not be as powerful and active in the outer world, but you are gaining strength and effectiveness on people's inner life if you are still healthy.
77- Onwards
During the three preceding periods a new self was developed. This emerged out of a summary and synthesis or all that you had lived. Perhaps, if you gave attention to your inner life, doorways of perception were opened through which you saw how your present life is a continuum of the long past, of ancestors and other influences. From this new self and widened perceptions you are acting and living in the world in a different way. The essence of the purpose, love and ideas you lived by is given new expression.
As we have seen, the various physical changes have interacted with the spark of awareness lit at birth, causing changes in consciousness and attitude. Might we not speculate then, by saying that the biggest physical change of all-death - may be but a pre-requisite for yet another cycle of life; an initiation into an entirely new type of awareness? In fact it can happen that from the last cycle onwards, if you dare to experience your inner life reasonably fully, you will already have experienced what naked awareness is like, or have penetrated what is called death in some way.
 
7年之后,也许即使记忆仍然存在,但你可以想象,记忆的载体-----你的每一个脑细胞都将是全新的,那么,他可靠么?
 
你还是你么?
 
所以说,一切都会过去,只是需要时间。。。
 
 
11/27/2008

assholes

 

I'am so angry...  But I just have no energy to explain anything. 

 

    

 


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11/22/2008

YouTube - Nick Vijicic 这段视频,该死。。我确实被感染了。

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2008 第六届中国环艺学年奖颁奖典礼观后小记

2008年中国环境艺术学年奖颁奖典礼在本校举行。
11月22号,有趣的日期,颁奖前一天,今天是讲座日,来自全国各大建筑院校,设计院校的教授,老师以及长三角地区青年设计师(刚毕业正在半失业状态或刚刚走上工作岗位的本科毕业生们)齐聚江南大学文浩馆,8点钟的会议向来是要拖到9点钟的。不过总的来说舍弃半天看英语的时间参加这样的活动对懵懂的我来说还是有点收益的。09年的学年奖将会是我等力争的东西,回想大学四年,说实话这块奖牌我是很想垂青的。。。也算是真正给自己一个回报和认可吧。
 
开会自然是领导讲话,我不知道国外是怎样,在中国,领导讲话是一种很奇妙的行为,因为缺乏互动性,所以对大部分人来说将会是一种彻底的煎熬,但对于我,事实上我很少在这样的场合睡着,也许因为出席这样的场合还不够多吧。。。但有一点是很能体会的,领导讲话通常上台都会自我检讨的告诉下面:我将会简短的说一下今天我的讲话内容,然后。。。。我不知道这里还能不能用briefly这个词,不过很能理解,人家也是认真准备的,认真准备了才会有很多东西说,才会积极地想说。。。通常情况下,大领导,二领导和三领导的讲话内容一般呈次方式递减,这也是一个常规现象。。。
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今天的大领导自然是中国环艺学术界的元老级人物,郑曙阳教授,说实话最早认识这位老大是大一的时候练手绘时,久久给的那本很老很老的居住环境设计(红色封面),说是居住环境设计,不如直接改名叫,郑曙阳先生居室手绘集,80年代的书,不过确实比较经典吧,就这样一本书,造就了中国最早的私人装潢公司,景观公司的老总们,就凭这一点,说此人是元老绝不为过,其实郑老师还有很多贡献的,比如,90年代后的室内设计圣经《绿壳的室内设计资料集》,还有他本人现在也身居要职----清华大学美术学院正院长。。。关于《绿壳的室内设计资料集》也算国内室内设计专业唯一一本圣经了,和分成几册的《建筑设计资料集》和我们学校(原无锡轻工)出版的《工业设计资料集》比起来绝对是小巫见大巫了,从定价上就可见一斑,这本绿壳书也再版 多次了,但内容和价格却从来没有更新过,(这是真的,我有把两个相隔10年的版本做过详细比对 。。。),人物介绍到这。。
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说说演讲内容,还是很值得一提的,郑老的题目是《环境艺术设计专业教育教学的定位》,从一开始就非常批判并且准确的点出这个专业的边缘性的特点,比如他明确指出这个奖项不具备国家权威机构的认可,并且主办单位“中国建筑学会----室内设计分会”也是名不副实等等,我个人认为,其实都是非常现实的现状,环境艺术这个专业目前的现状其实和十年前相比不是更好了,而是问题更大了,随着景观设计进入中国教育界,原先的园林专业,现在的景观专业,景观建筑专业,环境艺术专业,甚至建筑专业在国内各个高校开课的情况都有天壤之别,而矛盾的中心就出在环艺,大量的人才堆积,混乱的教学体制(这个我后面说),竞争激烈的的就业市场,为什么一个没有任何权威机构愿意认可的颁奖却成了各大高校环境艺术专业师生们为之努力的唯一出路,这些难道不值得深思么?郑老师从学年奖的角度从上而下的讲述了他的见解,有些我觉得很有道理,有些则存较大异议,毕竟我等是从下而上的学的。比如关于96年是一个手绘和电脑表现的分水岭等等等等,我觉得首先这个年份很难估量,96能代表当时的中央工艺,能代表北京艺术类高校,不能代表全国,第二,关于电脑表现,郑院长好像观念保守了些,我个人觉得首先从本质上,我们就应该把表现和理念分开来讲,这样比较方便,更明确。教学的时候也会让我们更明确方向,不至于很多同学到了大四还向迷途的苍蝇一样。现状是,比如我们学校大多数环艺学生做的东西表现力不够,又缺乏理念。。。。第三,技术永远在前进,我们应该用他们领导我们的理念,而不是局限于表现。这些都是我的学习中遇到的困惑,这些在我的大学前三年没有得到很好的解决,所以,我才会体会深刻。关于方案类设计,我似乎听出了一点明年学年奖的方向,这里,就不展开了。。。。。。
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郑老师结尾的时候,我隔壁一位在上海实习的同学嘀咕了一句:马的,怎么这些不早点说,大学都快结束了。。。。引起了我的深思,说实话,我觉得在江南大学设计学院度过的时间还是很有意义的,虽然我的一份恋爱到现在也没办法正确的评判他的意义,但在学院实际上还是有不少收获的,倒是没有在专业上出名,没关系,还有毕设,想做牛人要耐得住才行啊。
 IMG_7815江南大学设计学院院长,过以敏教授
二领导一般都是“地头蛇”哈,是的,我们的长相酷似奥巴马的院长过以敏老师发言,时间比大领导短,不过还是洋洋洒洒的讲了近一个多小时,题目是《走自己的设计之路》结合我们学校的实际情况,好的方面,他老人家都说了,但事实上我们学院发展还是非常不均衡,建环系在江南大学设计学院绝对是弱势群体,建环的学生苦是出了名的,但牛倒远远不如工业设计专业,从过老的PPT就可见一斑,环艺学年奖颁奖典礼,也就我们的院长,江南大学能拿得出,也敢拿得出工业设计的作品吓一吓各位来宾了,说实话,我们也很热爱设计,但在本学院,建环专业是被排斥的,工设的学生会和动画的合作短片,和视传合作VI,和公艺合作视觉向导系统,甚至和广告合作,但建环系绝对没这样的机会,原因 ?建环系太忙啦。我前面说了混乱的教学体制,这里我来说说,我们的建环专业,事实上所有人都很努力很努力。。。首先,我们四年制的教学时间,要学哪些东西呢,从大一下开始,我们正式进入专业,这在同类别艺术院校比,算最早的,我知道和建筑院校比也许不算早,大一下基本解决制图和学科启蒙(所谓启蒙就是知道并了解环艺包含的景观,园林,建筑,室内的方向性),大二上建筑设计(别墅),室内设计住宅,大二下室内设计餐饮空间,建筑设计幼儿园(和同类别的建筑院校比,这门课开的应该迟了一学期),建筑设计音乐厅,大三上室内设计专卖店,城市景观设计。大三下园林景观设计,室内设计会所,这些只是建筑相关的设计课,这其中还有建筑理论课程(建筑力学,建筑结构,建筑构造等),其他设计课程(平面的,公共艺术的,软件课程的,手绘的等等等等),还有采风,实习等等大作业量的课程,实际上,江南大学的建环教育实体就是把5年的建筑学,4年景观学,园林学,室内设计一股脑儿在三年里灌给我们,说道收获,那是绝对的,但这么多东西,说实话没有人说能全部很好的掌握,这是一个事实,所以我措辞很讲究,我说的是“没有人”,而不是“很少有人”。我们自己实际上在三年接触了至少3个行业,事实上明白每个行业起步都不怎么好混,所以大学最后一年往往都忙着认真的定位。所以一句话概括,我们专业在江大设计学院是一个标准的苦力专业,但绝对不是最牛X的专业。。。。。。学院今年要有大改动,不知道会怎么改呢,据说环艺并入土木?学院恐怕也是因为受不了现在环艺的教学状态了吧。。但愿我走的时候设计学院会变得更好而不是更糟。。。。。。
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不过牛人肯定是有的,同学一句话很好叫“牛人在哪里都是牛人”但还有一句话叫“牛人是一步步牛起来的”。我觉得两句都有道理。
 
还有,总觉得现在的设计学院自从改了LOGO以后,整个风格冷冰冰的,事实上我们还是很强的啊,看看作品不就明白了。。。设计依赖于市场,我个人认为光教学改革不能解决为什么设计学院近几年一直走下坡路的现状,而应该更加和蔼的融入市场,以一个高端设计者的角度审视市场。。。而不是冷冷的,酷酷的,虽然我们确实有些牛人,但这样的态度必将背离市场大的潮流,把自己推入深渊。。。
 IMG_7822重庆大学建筑学院赵万民教授
说说三领导,重庆大学赵万民教授,《论山地人居环境的空间美学》这个时间压缩的。。。。已经。。。。。主要原因是大家都饿了。。。于是,三领导本来我寄予重望,想看看他的因地制宜的环境设计,结果比较失望。。。除了那几个蹩脚的英文单词,实在不敢恭维,说实话,设计确实仰赖市场,重庆相对偏远了,所以个人觉得赵老师观念有些保守,有些东西实际上是需要具有批判性的。无论东方或者西方的。
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以上算小生大言不惭的说的两句感想,也只是一家之词,个人的感受罢了,如有措辞不妥,当本文出现在各大搜索引擎时,也希望各位看官有异议者,就只当文学品欣赏吧。我的目的就是调整一下自己的心态,毕竟自己已经在贼船上了。。
 
开始我就说了,开会在中国最大的问题就是缺乏互动性,如果有机会,我倒是很愿意举手发言当场讨论的这种,没这个机会,我只好来这里洋洋洒洒的写上一个来小时,我觉得我们这一代独生子女性格缺陷太严重了,自私,自卑,自大,该胆儿大的时候还会该死的胆儿小,也不知怎么处理突发情况。
 
这里就说个事儿,年前在南京饭桌上认识一位东南大学教授,早知道人家很牛X,也猜到他今天肯定会来,早上就把眼睛瞪得大大的看看是不是能邂逅一下,很幸运,不过虽然看见了,但位置相隔太远,没法打招呼,下午看展览,教授的学生得了金奖,我从心底敬仰。。后来很巧,在一间展厅偶遇,当时教授正在打电话,我不敢贸然和他搭话,
等电话打完,
 
我迎上去,
 
寒暄,
 
教授很热情,
 
末了,教授问:对了,你是。。。(我心里这个寒的。。。)
 
“我是。。。。。”
 
“哦,对了。。。那天那么多人,我哪记得你呢。。。”(我明显又受到打击)
 
“哦。。哈哈,我很羡慕您指导的学生。。。”
 
“哦。。那个随便玩玩得。。。。”(再次,再次。。受到强烈。。。)
 
后面的表现我明显不自然,教授又接了电话,走出了展厅,后来又在另一展厅偶遇,我就开始故意回避,回避他的眼神等等等,然后偷偷溜走。
 
事后想想,这说明我还不成熟,这样的小事情,我应该更加大大方方的处理,比如,直接微笑的说:“呀。这个,太打击我了。”,也可以最后合张影,或者带着教授参观。。。。。可我都没有,因为我胆怯,害怕,这都是很不好的,我觉得以后要想迈出大步子,这些方面一定要处理好,要学会做人,以后还要学会怎样在更大的场合做大大方方的人。这种性格和中国的教育体制有关,也和自己性格有关,所以。。。。一定要改,不然怎么做大事???
 
11月22日记。
11/13/2008

Precious from Heaven

一直以来,和系里面的大佬保持着一定的差距,一部分是客观的,一部分是主动的。
2008年11月13日9时45分,一张来自峰哥的光盘,4.25G的容量本不算什么,但我又该拿什么回报给各位观众。
里面居然还有苦苦寻找的《S,M,L,XL》。。。回想昨晚TT宿舍Hou的眼神,我顿悟,原来这才是我要的人生。
2008年5月27日15时07分的那篇日志,我怎么怎么了我。。。撤名撤名,善哉善哉。
怪不得前阵子老出问题,脑子烧焦了,脑浆喷了一地。
FC9781885254863
11/12/2008

天哪,怎会这样

集大众之所托,环艺系的明日之星。。。。天哪别这样。。。。峰哥一席话,吓死一地蟑螂。。。
其实我还是很菜的,环艺系看来是学院的准弱势群体啊,怎么感觉自己好像赙仪一样无助。。。。
开玩笑。。。还是自己的饼干外交起了作用?管他呢。。。
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